To My Darling Cheating Husband

To My Darling Cheating Husband,

You had and always will have the choice not to cheat. Always.

The Affair.

No matter how much you think or say you deserved the affair, you absolutely don’t.
You are not an exemption. You don’t have the right to deny your unethical behavior.
You not only deceived and crushed any trust with me, your wife, but you willingly did the same things to your girlfriends.

I overheard you feel awful about hurting those girls and have apologized and showed remorse to them, but your destructive behavior has left them shattered as well. I bet it hurts you to hear that; how much you destroyed the mental well-being of both their lives.

But now, “we” have to live with the mess you made, while you do what you need to make yourself feel ok, sweeping it under the rug, burying it in the past.

How Does It Feel?

But really, how does it feel to lie to me, telling me how stupid I am for believing you would ever cheat, while telling your girlfriends and close friends the truth?

Do you feel bad that you belittle me for my sadness, yet show such remorse and apologize to your girlfriends. Do you feel bad looking in my eyes and telling me how much you love me?

Do you feel remorseful towards me too?

How do you live with that? I guess you can because, even after a few years, you still live your life like you’re the most loyal husband ever. And still tell me I’m crazy for believing otherwise.
Nothing good comes from lying and destroying people who undeniably love and trust you. Nothing.

Choices.

You had the choice, like millions of others, to do the right thing. You chose not to. Cheating is a choice and you chose it again and again.
You chose to live a life of lies and you continue to choose it daily.

But really, does it bother you?

- Shattered and Surviving